I know its hard letting go of dreams you clenched onto with your fists so tight. I know because I did the same thing. Exactly. Sometimes I can't believe how connected we are in that sense.
But you shouldn't let that ruin your happiness in any way. We are all just living in this harsh world that is ready to kick us off our bikes at any moment. (bad metaphor)
All in all, I just want you to know that everything will work out because it always does. And because you're one of the most determined people I know.